Balance?!

To all the military spouses out there, please, take time for yourself. Don't wait! Do something NOW! The compliments of being the "backbone of the family", the "rock", the "number one supporter" are very nice, but there will come a time in your life that you will feel extremely less of yourself.

Or maybe it's just me. Sometimes I am jealous of my husband's accomplishments, because the list of mine doesn't seem to compare. His are just one after another. Mine seem so far and few. Am I not doing enough? I feel run down and exhausted, as if I'm doing more than the average person, but I don't feel like I'm doing anything significant. My husband always says how his accomplishments are also mine and that he couldn't have achieved so much without me. That makes me feel like he's just being nice and sharing like how we were taught as children to share. Almost in a mocking manner, to me, when I feel this blanket of jealousy. (At least once a month)

I have friends who are in their late 30's, early 40's and just now going back to school. They've raised their children and supported their spouses and realized that over the years they didn't make time for themselves. Now, they are trying to work on being what they want to be "when they grow up." I also have friends who went to school early and started careers, but their spouses didn't progress in the military. I guess it can go either way.

Balance is probably the answer. I just have no sense of the word or idea of balance. I feel outweighed with the six kids and chaotic household. I can't seem to create peace and serenity in this house! Gosh darn, I always seem to find a way to pull out my own faults when I'm writing or typing. Okay... so what I am really trying to say is that we should all find balance. Balance in the home. If I had balanced my dreams and my family, I might have actually had a chance at being what I wanted to be "when I grow up."

Okay, folks, just don't let yourself get to a point in your life where you are blaming others for what you didn't do. Don't lose yourself helping others reach their goals and dreams. You can make your dreams come true AND help them along the way.

Finding time for ME!

Golly gee...
Seems like I find a moment and then something comes up. It's been years (literally) since my last entry. I feel terrible because this was something I truly wanted to do. I still want to. I would like to get on the boards and visit with other bloggers on life's fun, funny and even not so funny adventures and experiences. Why not? I'm a military wife with six kids. I meet interesting folks on a daily basis and go through, witness and even create some of the best and worst that can happen in this world.

Since my last entry, I've had my 6th child, AM1 became AMC, my oldest graduated high school, J3 graduated elementary and J5 graduated preschool and is headed to Kindergarten. I've also moved from Virginia to Texas for 8 months, Texas back to Virginia for 15 months, Virginia to Florida (just got here two weeks ago).

We just moved from Virginia Beach, VA to Pensacola, FL. It's quite a change. We've been here for just two weeks and I can't really say if I love or dislike the differences. I'm extremely nervous about the public school system here in Florida. The standards are pretty low and the schools in our immediate area are barely meeting state requirements in core subjects. I'm surprised some of them are still open and operating. I'll be visiting the schools this week and deciding on enrollment next week.

I was posting about my weight loss journey last time I was here. Update on that is... well... I've gained weight. I'm not discouraged. I'm disappointed with my effort, but hopefully all the hard bodies on the beach of this area will motivate me to get my booty moving more. I'm hoping that a food journal and my updates on here will help me. I definitely don't want to post how much weight I'm gaining so if I want something good to post, I better lose the weight, right? Right?! Right!